Tuesday, January 23, 2007

The chubby, white girl, middle aged blues

Excuse me while I whine a little bit. I am not losing weight at all, no matter what I do. It is beyond frustrating. WW is not doing it this time. I don't know why. All the time I spend on the #!%#$ treadmill (when I could be doing something fun...or at least useful) does nothing. I don't eat desserts, I only have the occasional glass of wine. It's yogurt, salads and endless bottles of water and the results are exactly zero. Zip. Nada. Nothing. Sigh.

Being thin again won't make me a better person, but it would make me happier and healthier. It won't make my husband love me more, but I think he would respect me more if I could accomplish this goal (he knows how hard it is for me).

So, the only options I can see are #1 quit or #2 redouble my efforts. For my own self-respect I guess I can only choose #2, but, I really, really,REALLY hate it. So when I finally do get skinny again. I am throwing myself a huge party and buying a whole new wardrobe. I will have truely earned at least that!

1 comment:

Salesdiva said...

I KNOW exactly how you are feeling. Half of all my wonderful clothes don't fit or fit terribly and I'm just at my wits end. I have decided that I am going to do a Master Cleanse starting this Friday when I get back - clean years of gunk out and perhaps give me a jump start. Look it up (google Master Cleanse). Wanna do it together?
I love you just the way you are, but I completely know how much better I would feel about myself and my health if I could just achieve this goal.